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She couldn't pretend anymore,

There was something there and she knew it,

Something about his eyes when he spoke to her,

It's as if he was falling in love, slowly and silently

She looked away every time

He knew she could never love him the same,

So their conversations kept going,

But their eyes did all the talking

12:00 AM

Wake up,
wash up
make coffee
head to class
use your brain and make small talk
drive home
shuffle music while stuck in traffic
make food
study
work out
shower
sleep
repeat

Wake up,
snooze alarm

Wake up,
study for that exam

Wake up,
buy groceries

Wake up,
rush to work

Wake up,
daydream

Wake up,
do house chores

Repeat, repeat, repeat
...
Wake up,
make someone's day
smile a little more
make time for a hobby
call someone you miss and tell them you miss them
bake cookies
drink more water
treat yourself
treat someone else
go dancing
watch an old movie
read a book
take a walk or
make a list just like this
feel blessed
sleep
repeat.

Revelations

One day you will wake up and find that the demons you fight so desperately are standing before you in the mirror.
You will find that the cage surrounding you was built with your own bare hands.
Nothing is stopping you from opening that rusty door but you.
The thousand voices in your head, the insecurities, the fear.
All the ways to chain yourself in memories of what was and never able to look into what could be.
You are your own bully.
Don't damage yourself any further.
Find a reason to wake up in the morning and actually get up and look yourself in the mirror and find beauty where you once saw flaws.
Realize that you can change perceptions.
You can be yourself and love it too.
That's all it takes for others to embrace who you are as well.
And if they don't, well who the hell cares?
You will reach a point in your life where things don't matter anymore.
People, objects, places. All temporary in this enormous universe we live in.
Don't waste 12 hours out of your day upset over a 2 minute mishap.
Shit happens. Then we move on.
Don't be a hippy and be one with the earth either. Take action. You don't want to look back at your life and only remember yourself moping around.
Set goals. Set dreams. Set standards. And try to meet them. But do not set yourself up for failure. Give yourself time to heal and space to breathe.
Explore the world. Explore yourself. Take risks. Lead by example. Don't give up before saying you actually tried, at whatever it may be.
Learn to be positive and find the strength within you. That kind of strength that was always there during those tough and lonely times as a kid. 
Be wise. Be smart with your decisions. Be patient. But mostly, just be.
Shatter the mirrors where the demons still linger. Break the cage and set yourself free.
You deserve this chance
Only you can finish what you started.

quote unquote, #2

-Why is this your favorite spot in the city?

-Because you can see everything from here.  It's like you're isolated where you are, frozen in time, but the city is always moving...

About Time

As time passes by, we often find ourselves fearing change more than anything.  It's not that we fear the change itself, but we hate the fact that we won't be able to recognize something anymore, something that was once familiar.  We come to a point in our lives where we just have to let go of all the things we grew up knowing.  We leave our comfort zones for the sake of finding ourselves.

It's exciting, but it's scary.  We forget that when we come back, time has passed in the places we've left behind too.  It's like that "tree falling in the forest" idea.  If it fell in a far isolated forest then did it really make any noise at all?  So if we leave then we expect time to be passing by just for us, just in the people and places we're interacting with.  We are aging but our parents aren't.  We like to believe these things just so we don't get too scared of ever leaving and missing out on all the small stuff.

It would be easier to stay than to risk all of that wouldn't it? We fear the change that comes with time. We look back at our old pictures and remember how our house used to look like and the bedroom where we used to play and make all our messes.  We remember the way our city looked before all these new buildings came up and architecture suddenly made its boom.  Things were simpler back then.  We grow up and hate the fact that we can't go back.  It will never be the same.  But is that really so bad?  I know years from now I might look back at my pictures from today and will miss the way things are now.  You see each moment in time is special on its own.  You should be able to look in the mirror and embrace that first gray hair or wrinkle forming beneath your eye.  These represent years, months, weeks, days, hours, and seconds that you've spent living.  Let's not take it for granted.  Let's not fear the change around us and realize we are the change itself.  Consider this for a final thought: the same way you feel sad when your surroundings no longer look the same as they once did, your parents look at you with tears in their eyes every time you drive or bring a paycheck home, because sometimes change is good, and sometimes change means we are truly living.  

We are now where we were always meant to be.